Battle Studies

sometimes the hardest fights you're ever going to fight isn't with a monster from under your bed, or the bitchy girl in fifth grade. the hardest fights are going to be with yourself. the hardest fights are going to be against yourself. the constant internal conflict of self vs. self has plagued the human race since time began, i'm sure of it. while things have developed and evolved greatly since that point, the constant struggle of one's own thoughts and feelings have continued to be a burden. the problem is that with other conflicts you have a choice, fight or flee. the two decisions one is always faced with when posed with a problem concerning the outside world, but what happens when you can only fight? how can you flee from the thoughts mixed and tangled in your own mind? you can't. you simply have to fight and fight and then fight some more. it's not easy, but no one said it was. actually, people realize now that it's the exact opposite. fighting something internally bound inside of you is by far the hardest thing you could have to face; and you have to face it because you have no choice. i need control in my life, and i find it in everything i do and everywhere i go. but, what am i supposed to do when the one thing i can't control is myself.