My Stronger Side

i'm stronger than a lot of people think i am. i don't think it's because they don't see it, but because i don't show it. most don't know how much life has thrown at me, and how much i push right back. well what else am i supposed to do? sit there and wish things were different? well, not only will that not help me feel better, but it'll also do nothing to change the situation. so no, i'm not going to do any of that.

three years ago, i was hospitalized, again. it was serious but i wasn't scared. i was feeling unsure about how i was going to make another adjustment to my life, but then i talked to a friend. he didn't give me sympathy or baby me. he told me that i was a fighter and to be the person he knew i was and i don't think he knows how much those words have stayed with me. whenever i feel like i can't do something or like the world is attacking me, i think of him saying "claire, you're a fighter. you know that. now go fight back." i don't think i could thank him enough for saying those words to me.

these days, i sometimes forget those words. i forget that no matter what, there is that one person that believes in my inner strength. i wish more people believed in me. but i believe in myself and my amazing family does too. so in the end, i know i'll be as strong as ever, with or without your help.

A Foreign Concept

ive never been in love
ive only been in clubs

explain this whole love concept to me.

Words to Live By

i think if everyone did the above,
or at least tried their best,
the world would be a lot better.

but maybe that's asking too much.

Sing Me Something Soft

LOVE

why do i care about your's more than anyone else's?

The Hardest Thing

deep down, people know what the right thing to do is.
most don't need the advice they ask people for,
and most of the time, their minds are already made up.
but we ask anyways,
hoping for reassurance that we're making the correct decision.

i hope i'm doing the right thing.

A Higher Power

MY HOLY TRINITY

the father

the son

and the holy spirit

listen to their preachings...

jigga
ye
biggie

Swag Like His

call me

Shinedown On Me

smile, it's sunny outside

Nod to This

KELLEE MAIZE
innerplanetary fairy
download

THE WHITE PANDA
tipsy in the sun (weezer vs. j-kwon)
download

SAM ADAMS
coast to coast
download (heads will roll remix)

Terminal Five

something is so romantic about airports

i think it's the concept of being able to escape, go, leave.
and then the complete opposite at the same time,
being able to return, to come home.
whatever it is... i like it.

March Isn't Green, It's Mad

most people associate march with st. patrick's day.
the green beer, green shirts and green face paint.

not me.
for me, march isn't green, it's mad.

for me, march is the 10 seed that beat that 2 seed in the second round.
the player that put his team on his shoulders and carried them through to the elite eight.
the mascots, fans, cheerleaders, coaches, the school band and announcers
yeah baby.

for me, march is blue and white,
but a royal blue, not a baby blue.

for me, there is constant background noise of a ball through a net,
perfectly through the net.
a quick stop, a pull up j and the fight for the rebound,
but there rarely is one.
the soundtrack of march is repetitive.
cheering, pain, whistles and yelling, war cries from the student section.

it's at the buzzer.
it's on the line.
it's do or die.


fuck off st. patrick,
march isn't about you.
march is about the madness.

The Tips of Tongues

at some point, someone will tell you something that
will change your world

A Magical Place

i'm 2050km from where i live

and i've never felt more at home

this is where i belong.

also... mash ups make me happy.

LISTEN
LISTEN

Boom Boom Boom Boom

love is a terrible thing to not share

Direction

i know what i want.
i just don't know how to get there.

and no one seems to have a road map for this thing called life.

It Is Written

i'm excited.
not because i get to go home and see the person who fits into this description in my head perfectly or because i think i've finally met someone who makes me lose all control. i'm simply excited because there will be a person who has scars.
so many scars.
scars that other people have left.
and i will not care. because those scars will make up the person i love.
scars have a bad reputation.
they conjure up thoughts of ugliness and violence.
but i think scars are a good thing.
scars are permanent, they make you who you are.
my scars are beautiful,
and i'm sure yours are too.



and now a song about scars....
swing life away

Hold Her, Squeeze Her, Never Leave Her

when she gets weary, try a little tenderness
-otis redding

Adventure Season

this isnt going to last
hurry, hurry
we have to run fast

Open My Heart

A Lesson From the Past

Interior
By: Dorothy Parker

Her mind lives in a quiet room,
A narrow room, and tall,
With pretty lamps to quench the gloom
And mottoes on the wall.

There all the things are waxen neat
And set in decorous lines;
And there are posies, round and sweet,
And little, straightened vines.

Her mind lives tidily, apart
From cold and noise and pain,
And bolts the door against her heart,
Out wailing in the rain.

North of the 49th

OVER


you can thank me later

A Breath Of Fresh Air

im excited again

The Writings On The Wall

i love people freely expressing themselves

I Hope One Day You'll Join Us

i'm not the only one dreaming. although you make it sound like it sometimes, i'm not. because people make these pictures, and the sun shines, olympic medals are won, people leave hospitals healthier and every day someone is falling in love with someone else. this is how i know i'm not the only dreamer, there's millions of us. millions of girls and millions of boys that are constantly dreaming, hoping, wishing and keeping faith. i'm not the unique one for being a dreamer. you are for not being one. but don't worry, there will always be room for you when you decide to join the club.

Another Dream, Another Punch

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Everything you do, you pay for. So if you're going to kiss me, you'd best be prepared to bleed.





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The Truth

but i can't help it.....