Our Story

Do you know what you want? Are you happy with how this is going to play out? Because if nothing changes, I know how it will end. It will be hard at first. This feeling I have now will not fade until sometime probably in mid August. I'll realize that I was out laughing and smiling and getting along just fine without thinking that you should be beside me. Then I'll become content towards our relationship. I'll be able to think of you fondly and without feeling a lump welling up in my throat. I'll think about how much fun we had together, how I was able to trust someone and act wild without being judged or stared at weird. You took me the way I was, and let me be me. For that, I thank you. Obviously not very many other people would do this, or put up with it. But, that's how it will pan out if nothing changes. I have always believed this to be the best decision as well, but it's interesting what a little perspective brings you.

I'll be okay if this is our destiny- if this is what we choose to be the best option because it probably is. it is probably the most likely as well. You won't be back here until next September, I'll be moving away and making less than great amounts of money and we won't ever see each other. But I'll miss you, everyday.


I'll miss everything you'd expect me to miss and that is why I refuse to let you go just yet. Because I know how much I'll miss falling asleep looking at your face. I'll miss how you message me in the morning and throughout the day and never let me go even when I know you're busy and would rather be not be messaging me. I'll miss how you appease me and my little girl habits, despite me also making sure I correct you on every piece of sports trivia. I promise to stop doing this if you come back, if we work this out. It's not supposed to work out. I understand, really. But if it did, we'd be characters from a movie. Our story would be a fairytale. It would be the best bedtime story you could never tell, even if you knew it by heart.

Another Time & Place

i drink more water now that you're gone. 

i've never cried so much.

The Countdown Begins

six days