Three Truths and a Lie

i never wanted the feeling to go away. that's a truth. i wanted you to match my feeling. but that never happened. it was consuming me. this feeling, this mentality; it was all so exhausting. i would wake up, and think of you. i would drive to work, and think of you. i would hear a song on the radio, and think of you. i would go through a magazine, and think of you. my phone would buzz, and i'd think of you. like a short film on loop, you were constantly inside my head. your mannerisms, voice, face, touch, were all in my head replaying themselves and torturing me. then it all changed. that's another truth. i wasn't sure at first. at first i thought it was my mind trying to trick my heart again into not needing you, not wanting you. i didn't believe i could actually change my feelings about you. but i did. i don't know if my heart gave up, or my mind finally overpowered. but it was as if a veil was lifted. you didn't change. i changed. that's the final truth. it's okay though, it wouldn't have worked out anyways. that's the lie, it probably would have. but for now, while i'm still scrambling to pick up all the pieces that you left me in, i'm going to have to lie and say that it wouldn't have worked.

The Places You've Come to Fear the Most

get in

shut up

we're driving

fast

we're going no where

fast

it's okay

i don't care

you care less

so get in

shut up

we're leaving.

One Wish

If I was granted one wish, I would wish for you. It would be for you to always keep your sense of wonder. don't let the malicious people of this world take that twinkle out of your eye and let the dust and dirt pollute your immaculate spirit like it has to so many others before you. believe in your dreams. believe in love. believe in yourself because sometimes no one else will, well it might seem like no one else does, but I always will. I will always know how special you are compared to everyone else. i don't think this world is good enough for you. you deserve so much more. you deserve a place where the demons don't keep people up at night, where people aren't paid to sell products that knowingly hurt others of their kind, and where the filth of the trash of humanity can't harm you. you deserve so much more. so if I had one wish, only one wish, I wouldn't wish for the lottery, i wouldn't wish for love for me or  to be prettier or more kind, I would wish for you. I would wish that everything you ever dreamed of comes true, and when it happens, that I get to be standing beside you.

Some Things, Others Say Better

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When There's Nothing Left to Say

I need to catch my breath

I need to stop thinking and re-thinking

I need to think about anything but you. 

I'll return when there's something left to say