Stagnant Change

I don't cry myself to sleep anymore. I don't think of your face before I fall asleep just to make sure I have a good dream, instead of the nightmare I had to live as you left me. I don't look around thinking I'm going to see you at a party and I know you're not going to call me anymore of my nicknames you gave me. I don't look up flights everyday for last minute deals. I don't wait to hear your voice over the phone and I don't even need to see your face on my computer anymore. But I still want you. I still want you beside me and want to talk to you. I don't need to do anything than live a typical day in order to miss you. I don't need to have you here but fuck, I want you to be.