Three Truths and a Lie

i never wanted the feeling to go away. that's a truth. i wanted you to match my feeling. but that never happened. it was consuming me. this feeling, this mentality; it was all so exhausting. i would wake up, and think of you. i would drive to work, and think of you. i would hear a song on the radio, and think of you. i would go through a magazine, and think of you. my phone would buzz, and i'd think of you. like a short film on loop, you were constantly inside my head. your mannerisms, voice, face, touch, were all in my head replaying themselves and torturing me. then it all changed. that's another truth. i wasn't sure at first. at first i thought it was my mind trying to trick my heart again into not needing you, not wanting you. i didn't believe i could actually change my feelings about you. but i did. i don't know if my heart gave up, or my mind finally overpowered. but it was as if a veil was lifted. you didn't change. i changed. that's the final truth. it's okay though, it wouldn't have worked out anyways. that's the lie, it probably would have. but for now, while i'm still scrambling to pick up all the pieces that you left me in, i'm going to have to lie and say that it wouldn't have worked.